Odie's Atomic Dustbin

One Down...

2009-03-12T11:42:00.003+08:00

There are some projects that you're glad it's finally OVER! And this is one of them. At the end of everything you're not even sure if you're going to be proud of it or LOATHE it. But for the sake of posterity...I might as well. In loving memory of the blood, sweat and tears, not to mention all that precious time and energy... here it is... another project done and we move on to the next...

Adventure Australia 2008

2008-12-17T22:14:00.005+08:00

Finally, a real vacation! I've been looking forward to this for months and finally November 28 came and we all packed our bags and headed Down Undah! I loved every minute of it! Didn't matter if I got overtanned, I love Australia and I will definitely come back and visit. Click away and see some of the sights of Brisbane and Sydney.BrisbaneSydneyAnd of course the real reason why we went there

What's Kept Me

2008-10-24T12:38:00.006+08:00

There is no other reason for my absence in the blogging world aside from (what else) but work! I've been juggling between projects. But here I am taking the time to blog about it. Here are the two of my major projects. Please take the time to visit. Two down.... more to go!Discovery Suites WebsiteMTV Philippines Website

Beaching with the Family

2008-08-25T19:13:00.004+08:00

Dad's home again, so its time for another family trip and this time we headed to Subic's Camayan Beach Resort for some R&R. Just in case you're keeping tabs, the last family trip was in Baguio. Here are some lovely photos of our Subic trip, click away folks...

Anesthetic

2008-07-28T15:52:00.002+08:00

I've been working non-stop for the last couple weeks, hence my long absence in the blogging world. The weird (or sick) thing is... I actually like it. It's almost like a drug that puts my brain in auto mode for long periods of time. It's been so toxic that I'm physically getting sick because of it. But that hasn't stop me-- at all. I just keep on going. When I think about it (which I try to

If Fonts were People

2008-07-23T16:01:00.004+08:00

I would have to be crazy not to share this. It's too funny. See more funny videos and funny pictures at CollegeHumor.

Thin, Flabby and Spotted

2008-07-01T14:42:00.003+08:00

Back from the dead!Just to let you in on the news, I was stricken with the pox for the last two weeks (I am well now thank you very much), which has left me spotted and 4 pounds less off my weight. But I have taken care of that with a quick visit to my derma and finally a trip to the gym! Two weeks without 'gyming' is unbearable. I hate flab.On better news, I have finally tried surfing! Two

How Am I?

2008-05-28T10:51:00.002+08:00

How am I--is the subject of much controversy nowadays and it all comes in different forms. Whether its through a text message, a message through ym, a short call, an email, a comment on my blog, it actually feels overwhelming and maybe even slightly comforting. That's what you get for having good quality friends.A question too simple merits a short answer of which I don't have. Of course I can

Baguio & Fish Nibbles

2008-05-26T14:21:00.002+08:00

Ever since I was 3 years old Baguio has been our family's destination of choice for a quick getaway, which meant most of the summers of my childhood was spent there. Although nowadays our quick getaways have been replaced with trips abroad or to places nearby...sometimes we still go back just for the heck of it... and that we did two weeks ago. Here are a few of some interesting photos. For

Crispy Mint M&Ms

2008-05-11T15:32:00.003+08:00

If you actually think this post is about Crispy Mint M&Ms then I will disappoint you. Best not to proceed because this is going to be a long one and it has absolutely nothing to do with chocolates.This whole break-up business is gruesome. It reminded me why I never get into relationships in the first place. (Note to self.)The whole detachment process is EXCRUCIATING. It's like undergoing a

Closure

2008-05-05T09:30:00.002+08:00

The way I see it if you know how to say 'Hi' then you should know how to say 'Goodbye'. It's a pretty simple concept. In fact, it's so simple a lot of us take it for granted like so many other simple things.We say 'Hi' when we get introduced to someone new or when we recognize someone in the street and if you're the friendly type you just say 'Hi' to practically everyone... which can be

Billboard for Google Video in Berlin

2008-04-29T12:06:00.002+08:00

I'm posting something happy today 'cause I know two days from now... things are going to turn for the worst.Check out this really cool billboard for Google Video in Berlin. It's genius!Happy viewing!

Home

2008-04-28T14:42:00.004+08:00

I'm using this site as my home base again after realizing I couldn't put up with LJ's limitations and mine. I will be making a few updates very very soon. After the way things are going, I sure will. Not exactly the changes I want but that's just how the cookie crumbles.Come back soon!

Dead Woman Walking

2008-04-24T10:12:00.000+08:00

It's almost close to 8 weeks and counting... and all I've done is wait.... waiting for the Executioner to finally drop the guillotine and he hasn't come yet.Where is he? What's taking him so long? I remember he called me up through my cellphone to hand me my sentence with a promise that I will have my chance to present my case and defend it. The chance never came. And so I willingly put

Shanghai Adventure Photos!

2008-04-11T23:25:00.001+08:00

As promised... click on!

Just a thought

2008-04-10T19:18:00.000+08:00

I don't want to sound so profound but given the situation... I just can't help it sometimes. Here goes... In some situations words spoken are better than words written. It's how we say it, how our eyes speak, how our hands move or how our bodies shift that make all the difference in what we want to convey. Sometimes it's even not enough to just say it. You need to see and you need feel it.

Back to Reality

2008-04-09T16:02:00.000+08:00

I'm back! Four days worth of Shanghai adventures. That was quite the experience. It was fun while it lasted. I will post pix through my multiply site, which I haven't touched in years (didn't really know what to do with it) but I have yet to go through all 161 photos I took there. So hang on. Here are some notable places we visited: The Bund- The great divide between the old and new faces

Shanghai or Bust

2008-04-02T15:49:00.000+08:00

Here's something to look forward to. We're going to Shanghai! That will be me and my best friend Lorena, who found this tour package for a steal in the newspaper. Her timing is perfect. It will be my first time to go on vacation not just because I love to travel and see new places because I just wanna DISAPPEAR-- at least for just 4 short days. We're leaving on Friday.I've been to Beijing,

My Multiply

2008-03-31T17:27:00.002+08:00

Bet you guys didn't know about my Multiply site. It's something I had before and I'm trying to update it now. I'm still finding that inspiration to hit me so I can start cleaning and updating my sites. I'm just hoping and praying my lack of inspiration ends soon!

Last Stand

2008-03-13T13:59:00.000+08:00

I made my last stand today. I figured since everything is falling apart already, might as well make everything fall apart the right away, if there even were such a thing. In worst case scenarios, you try to do the best that you could so in the end, you walk away with a peace of mind. But it doesn't stop there unfortunately, sometimes all we can do is wait and hope....

I Heart Incubus

2008-03-11T12:54:00.000+08:00

I heart Brandon Boyd and the rest of Incubus for making me forget the depressive pathetic state I am in for 90 minutes straight! Needless to say the whole concert was a blast! I can't believe they sang songs from almost every album they made from S.C.I.E.N.C.E, Make Yourself, Morning View, A Crow Left of the Murder and of course their latest Light Grenades! I was totally out of my mind when they

Pardonez-Moi

2008-03-11T11:28:00.002+08:00

Originally I had a vision for this site to be my laboratory of the online world but instead it has been all about my life as of late. My lack of inspiration at this time is due to ongoing events that I have not expected and tough times have led me to be less inclined to explore new things. But please, bare with me here. I shall try to find inspiration in whatever way I can.

Something to get my mind off

2008-03-07T13:39:00.004+08:00

Perfect timing. Something to get my mind off recent events that have rendered me too depressed to even function. Incubus is back in Manila! Watched them the first time and watching them again. Can't get enough. Me and my concert buddy, Carlo will be there in our comfy lower box seats.Anyone going? See you guys there!

Space

2008-03-04T09:58:00.001+08:00

Space, the final frontier. No, that's not what I'm talking about. I'm talking about this kind of S P A C E.Space is good. Space makes you think, it gives you that inner peace. A place to relax and be alone. A temporary recluse from the chaos of the world below.Right now I'm not a big fan of it. Right now space spells uncertainty, impending doom, a disaster waiting to happen. It spells

Making Myself Laugh

2008-02-27T17:11:00.000+08:00

I'm watching these videos tearing up. Laughter... it's the best medicine... I'm fucking Matt DamonI'm fucking Ben Affleck

Nostalgic

2008-02-19T11:54:00.001+08:00

Been feeling nostalgic for the last couple of days and its not because I'm becoming terribly sentimental but its MAINLY because I have been looking for these rare MP3s (circa college days 1999 thereabouts). Most unexplainable of all is that I could not seem to find them in torrent or even in Limewire. Frustrating.And so, I might just have to content myself in watching them through youtube. Here

Be a citizen of Snoozerville!

2008-02-06T10:39:00.000+08:00

Snoozerville Needs You! I found this cute little site from Kei that let's you create your own City (and you even get to name it) and all you have to do is ask your friends to visit it and post little messages about it to make the city grow. Pretty low maintenance if you ask me. Here's mine. I hope you guys take the time out to post something when you get to Snoozerville! Snoozerville

Schnoozing with a MAC (The New Year Entry)

2008-01-04T11:13:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year folks! It's the big 08! Our creative director says that once I've tried a MAC.... you can never go back (to regula PC)... gasp! And I would never have found out how true this was until my laptop crashed and the only available computer in the office is a MAC G4 (lovely!). But I have to admit that at first I kind of dreaded the idea of using the MAC thinking that it wasn't going

We won! We won!

2007-11-26T11:57:00.000+08:00

We won!!!Pinoy DVD wins best E-Commerce site at the 10th Philippine Web Awards! Woohoo!

Of Kids Shows and... Inday

2007-11-20T16:42:00.000+08:00

I am exhausted. This will explain my blogging hiatus. If I'm too tired, I would rather immerse myself in some online game like KoL (which I so love) or anything Jay recommends. I just could not bring myself to blog.But here's something worth blogging....a Kids show gone bad and this is for real! Watch and weep!And speaking of blogs... our beloved Inday Ang Sosyal na Katulong has her own space

Oh. My. God.

2007-10-26T16:55:00.000+08:00

Thanks to all of you who have voted. All four of our wonderful entries to the 10th Philippine Web Awards are now finalists!There's still time to vote you guys! Wahoo!!!

Online Marketing 101: Coke Zero

2007-10-15T13:51:00.000+08:00

Friends from the multi-media marketing and advertising world (and for those who want a glimpse of it), read up! Here's another excellent example of using the Internet to launch and support a marketing campaign. This one is launching and promoting Coke Zero.... its fantastic... it creates hype, its hilarious and I think it actually works. Look around their site and there's lots in store for you!

Favor....

2007-10-08T13:41:00.000+08:00

Because you are all my friends, I know you will help us win in the 10th Philippine Web Awards!Here are our entries!For Community Portal: San Miguel Great Food ClubFor E-Commerce: Pinoy DVDFor News and Media: MTV PhilippinesFor Schools: Marilou Diaz-Abaya Film InstituteYou have two ways to VOTE! 1. VOTE ONLINE. All you have to do is visit http://www.philippinewebawards.com/default.asp and

Facebook, iLike.. etc.

2007-09-25T10:56:00.000+08:00

I am running out of ideas to put in this site, to be perfectly honest. I am open to suggestions at this point. In a way its kind of limiting. Either that or I need to learn more about capabilities of some web applications a.k.a technical stuff. But since time has been rare, what I have been doing lately (thanks to Gabs) is experimenting with some networking sites like Facebook and iLike,

Webbies!

2007-09-05T14:46:00.000+08:00

The Philippine Web Awards are here again!View the nominees here.But....Here are our proud entrees (a.k.a. the sites you need to watch out for, :P) :For Community Portal: San Miguel Great Food ClubFor E-Commerce: Pinoy DVDFor News and Media: MTV PhilippinesFor Schools: Marilou Diaz-Abaya Film InstituteWoohoo! I hope we win!

Adding a Header Image

2007-08-15T14:29:00.000+08:00

I figured I should at least try to add a header image for this site. Making one wasn't a such a problem, nothing Photoshop couldn't handle. So off I went, hosted my image and added the code to my template with the help of Dreamweaver. I saved my work and previewed it and it was exactly how I wanted it to turn out. It was just all a matter of finding the header tags and voila! Very uneventful

Web Widgets

2007-08-08T16:38:00.000+08:00

So I finally had time again to work on my nuke site of which I have recently added some web widgets on my side bar. I didn't realize how addicting it was until now! But I had to control myself or else my site would look like some horrible explosion of non-sense. I had added a blufr widget since I've always been a sucker for trivia- useful or not. I also added a digital clock... just cause I

Favicons

2007-08-01T13:55:00.000+08:00

At the moment the only change I can afford to do to in this site is add a favicon. I couldn't figure out how to do this until I realized I needed to host my favicon somewhere first. Since I absolutely know NOTHING about hosting a favicon, I searched and found a site that does just that..... host favicons! The whole site was like friendster of favicons you can update whenever you want!After

TEST JOURNAL ENTRY #1

2007-07-20T18:07:00.000+08:00

I have recently introduced myself to my friend Dreamweaver in my attempts to get reacquainted to the world of HTML. So far it's all about editing text and inserting images for now. Reading the Help manual seems to be effective but I am too impatient. I need to cut that out and start reading!

TESTING...TESTING...

2007-07-20T17:55:00.000+08:00

From this day forward, this space will be Odie's laboratory in her attempts to develop the skills of a web developer. Recurring bugs or strange occurrences should be ignored and will be dealt with as soon as she finds her bearings and figures out what to do. Everything here is strictly experimental.For relevant posts, please refer to her livejournal.Godspeed!

2005-02-11T05:41:00.000+08:00

Of the Unexplained and Unexpected I choose not to know why or how or even when. Sometimes things are better left unsaid. Mysteries they remain and probably will forever be. For instance, how do you explain believing in something so impossible yet the pursuit remains ruthless? Or when the odds are great but the vision is still clear? Or when the wind blows and knocks you out senseless but still

2005-02-01T17:26:00.000+08:00

Making the Same Mistakes... Again I couldn't even bring myself to say it. Just the thought of it leaves a lingering bitter taste in my mouth. She said she saw it coming and obviously I never did, like all other things. In the beginning it was all about making a point. I believed that once I have achieved that, things will be better. It was that simple. I never meant it to get complicated.

2005-01-28T08:44:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow Avril Lavigne And I Wanna Believe You When You Tell Me That It Will Be Okay Ya, I Try To Believe You But I Don't When you say that it's gonna be It always turns out to be a different way I try to believe you Not today, today, today, today, today I don't know how I'll feel Tomorrow Tomorrow I don't know what to say Tomorrow Tomorrow is a different day Its always been up to you It's

2005-01-28T08:14:00.000+08:00

Life After Death Morning after morning, experiencing every rude awakening that could possibly happen, the world appears crude, dark and merciless. Nothing can seem to change this. As a result, I have made myself captive to the world, refusing to give in to its whims thinking it would do no good. I have kept to myself refusing any kind of help for I know this would only complicate matters and

2004-11-22T17:43:00.000+08:00

Ignorance is Bliss Sometimes things are better off unexplained. Sometimes headaches and heartaches are borne out of complications in an attempt to explain the unexplainable. Just let things be. We don't want to know why we're happy as long as we are. Just let me be and you don't have to do anything else but watch me as I find myself get lost in you.

2004-11-18T15:13:00.000+08:00

On the Way Down Ryan Cabrera Sick and Tired of this world There's no more air Trippin' over myself Goin' nowhere Waiting Suffocating No direction And I took a dive And on the way down I saw you And you saved me From myself And I won't forget The way you loved me On the way down Almost fell right through But I held onto you I've been wondering why It's only me Have you always been inside

2004-11-18T14:58:00.000+08:00

Pennsylvania Avenue, Washington DC It was the perfect season, orange begets red with shades of brown in between. The cold air freezing the moment, the scent of the leaves intoxicating. Surrounded by monuments so proud and important, feeling so small. It's so easy to get lost yet you don't mind. I felt like exploring and so that's what I did. But sometimes I wondered how you were and

2004-11-01T21:05:00.000+08:00

2 Weeks Somehow you bring out the worst and best out of me and you don't even know-- not even a clue. Like morphin you numb the wounds which you have deliberately inflicted in me. For how long am I to suffer like this? I wish I knew. I am enraptured and I can't break free. You're all I ever needed. And now I am given the chance to open my eyes-- for two weeks. Enough time for me to

2004-10-26T16:58:00.000+08:00

Self-Preservation Sometimes we have to runaway in order to save ourselves. Back when we were young we learned to avoid things that hurt us. It's usually the same when we're all grown up, especially when we find ourselves in the same situation wherein we somehow foresee that the situation would lead you to something much worse. But the hardest and most challenging thing about this is the thing

2004-10-26T16:07:00.000+08:00

Broken Seether I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well I wanna hold you high and steal your pain ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away You've gone away, you don't feel me, anymore The worst is over now and we can breathe again I wanna hold you

2004-10-22T16:24:00.000+08:00

Necessary Evil Sometimes to forget something or someone, you need to let go, even if it means letting go of EVERYTHING. It is easier said than done... but it is necessary because sometimes it is the only way to get things right again. It's definitely not an easy thing to do, in fact it is probably the hardest especially if you are trying to detach yourself from something so important. I guess

2004-10-20T14:04:00.000+08:00

The Truth Serum It's like a poison that creeps into your veins, slowly making its way into your head and then into your heart. Before you know it, you feel the cold envelope your entire being until you let out one last frozen breathe. The torture comes when you suddenly realize there is no stopping the process. I have found the source of the poison that runs through my veins and I can only beg

2004-10-19T16:05:00.000+08:00

Drowning Pool Part 2 I hide underneath the cloak of denial. I pretend I do not hear, see or feel. Whoever said Out of Sight Out of Mind is a fool, for he continues to live and breathe in my memories. My immortal. My face gaunt, expressionless, trying to hide the truth. I pretend each day is an ordinary day. I'm too scared to even close my eyes for he would visit me in my dreams. And in my

2004-10-17T20:18:00.000+08:00

I Miss You Blink 182 Hello there, the angel from my nightmare The shadow in the background of the morgue The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley We can live like Jack and Sally if we want Where you can always find me We'll have Halloween on Christmas And in the night we'll wish this never ends We'll wish this never ends (I miss you, I miss you) (I miss you, I miss you) Where are you

2004-10-17T19:52:00.000+08:00

The Grateful Dead Things are good but it could be better. I find myself compromising a lot of things only to get less than what I've bargained for. I wanted something more. I guess I could just be grateful for what we already have but I keep wondering if there was so much more to it or if there could be. I could just have it easy but I chose not to. I chose the road less traveled rather

2004-10-07T16:03:00.000+08:00

Drowning Pool I had another dream but this time it is something to remember. I was sunbathing next to a not-so-ordinary pool which had rocks beneath it. While examining the pool I found a very interesting looking rock below and it was the deepest blue I have ever seen and found myself wanting to reach for it. So I dove in the pool and searched for this unique rock and was happy that I had

2004-10-07T04:10:00.000+08:00

Trying to make myself smile... You are the fox. Saint Exupery's 'The Little Prince' Quiz. brought to you by

2004-10-06T14:43:00.000+08:00

Lost & Confused I woke up last night with the strangest dream but I couldn't remember what it was. All I can remember was waking up with a feeling of great loss. I felt I lost something so important to me but I couldn't figure out what it was. I was driving to work with that same feeling and it frustrated me to no end just to know what exactly I've lost. And then it suddenly dawned to me

2004-10-05T07:31:00.000+08:00

I might as well... Amber 311 Brainstorm take me away from the norm I got to tell you something this phenomenon I had to put it in a song and it goes like Whoa, amber is the color of your energy whoa, shades of gold displayed naturally you ought to know what brings me here you glide through my head blind to fear and I know why whoa, amber is the color of your energy whoa, shades of gold

2004-10-04T16:07:00.000+08:00

On the Way Down On the way down I saw the world upside-down as I feel myself fall. On the way down I saw the crowd gather below to make way for my descent. On the way down I watched time in slow motion as my head neared the ground. On the way down I feel the blood rush to my face as gravity takes control over me. On the way down I saw you smile and wave at me before my head hit the ground.

2004-10-04T09:20:00.000+08:00

Death Becomes Her Do you know what it's like when the sun shows itself but you don't feel its warmth? Or how the wind would pass you by but you don't feel its strength? Or how the rain falls in your face but you don't feel its dampness? It's an all too familiar feeling for me. I should say that it happens all the time, so I shouldn't even be surprised. But I couldn't help it sometimes. Sometimes

2004-10-03T20:50:00.000+08:00

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind I love the beach, so whenever I'm not doing so well I mentally transport myself into its sandy shores with the sunset just looming ahead. It's a perfect picture. I love how the sound of the waves hit the shore creating its own rhythm. I love the orang-purple haze of the sky which almost look like an abstract painting floating in the air. Pehaps the

2004-10-02T23:01:00.000+08:00

It's one of those days again when you have a song stuck in your head playing like a broken record... One of These Days Michelle Branch I didn't notice But I didn't care I tried being honest But that lead me nowhere I watched the station Saw the bus pulling through And I don't mind saying A part of me left with you One of these days I won't be afraid of staying with you I hope and I pray

2004-09-29T09:58:00.000+08:00

Sometimes we all just need a little room to breathe. Breathe Michelle Branch I've been driving for an hour Just talking to the rain You say I've been driving you crazy and its keeping you away So just give me one good reason Tell me why I should stay 'Cause I dont wanna waste another moment in saying things we never meant to say And I Take it just a little bit I, hold my breath and count to

2004-09-27T16:17:00.000+08:00

Signs: To read them or not I woke up today with a sudden urge to hit my head against the wall. I was having an epiphany moment and I wasn't dealing with it very well. It was a couple of days ago that I had prayed to God and asked for a sign from him if whether or not my feelings were true or if this was the right thing for me. I got my answer last Sunday, at least I assumed that was the answer.

2004-09-24T16:56:00.000+08:00

Three Libras A Perfect Circle threw you the obvious and you flew with it on your back, a name in your recollection, thrown down among a million same. difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed and passed over when i've looked right through to see you naked and oblivious and you don't see me.but i threw you the obvious just to see if there's more behind the eyes of a fallen angel, the eyes

2004-09-24T14:43:00.000+08:00

Pre-Conceived Notions Part 3 I remember when I was 6 or 7, every three o'clock in the afternoon I would look forward to spending the rest of the day with my guy friends climbing trees, biking around and exploring and playing with bugs.... It's no wonder I was so dark back then and my hair was a shade of burnt brown. It was then that I realized that I have become one-of-the-boys, which turned out

2004-09-22T16:27:00.000+08:00

Strange Condition So I'm driving home from work again only this time I have Pete Yorn's Strange Condition playing in the background. I realize for the nth time, yet again, how and when will I ever wake up from this recurring nightmare. It seems that I tried every means to escape from it yet it manages to suck me right back in again. I wonder if I make the worst decisions. I'm totally fed up.

2004-09-21T17:07:00.000+08:00

Naked Avril Lavigne I wake up in the morning Put on my face The one that's gonna get me Through another day Doesn't really matter How I feel inside This life is like a game sometimes Then you came around me The walls just dissapeared Nothing to surround me Keep me from my fears I'm unprotected See how I've opened up You've made me trust I've never felt like this before I'm naked around you

2004-09-20T16:38:00.000+08:00

The Great Torpedo Blast Actions speak louder than words but actions may be misinterpreted through wrong assumptions. Mistakes are often borne out of wrong assumptions and that is why I don't expect and I don't assume. I tend to take things as it is because I hate getting disappointed in the end. But the thing that I truly appreciate the most is clarity. I'd like to know if I'm wasting my time or

2004-09-15T10:04:00.000+08:00

Worlds ApartSearching for words to say trying to make things right feeling so restless wondering if this is right we struggle to think together are we gonna be alright? breathing the silence feeling the space between waiting for you to speak while you wait my turn eyes not seeing voices unheard trying to read your mind as you try to read mine both unmoving both just waiting we both sit still

2004-09-15T06:16:00.000+08:00

A Poem to No One I really don’t’ know how to say this to you I don’t mean to assume But I have these questions in my head that I can’t bring myself to ask you I’m walking around in my room wondering what to say I’m thinking maybe I’m wrong or maybe I’m just too afraid You say I think too much Yeah, maybe that’s it or maybe I’m just not right these feelings I have to fight All I’ve been

2004-09-12T21:53:00.000+08:00

Of Magic Dusts and Roller Coaster rides........ It's 9 o'clock in the clock and my mind is nowhere close to home. Tonight my mind is filled with thoughts of the past, the present, and the things to come. When I was young, the world overwhelmed me. So I resorted in trying to find a world of my own where I can be... happy. I became an escapist, and not a very good one at that. I was

2004-09-09T13:02:00.000+08:00

**sigh** All I Want Toad the Wet Sprocket Nothing's so loud As hearing when we lie The truth is not kind And you've said neither am I But the air outside so soft Is saying everything.... Everything..... All I want is to feel this way To be this close, to feel the same All I want is to feel this way The evening speaks, hear it say.... Nothing's so cold As closing the heart when all we need Is

2004-09-07T09:12:00.000+08:00

Preconceived Notions part 2 All along I thought that the caste system has long been obliterated from our culture but unfortunately traces of it still remain. Case in point, if you were born rich you are expected to only mingle with your kind, act like your kind and live like your kind. But this shouldn't be the case at all and anyone who had sense knows that. But some people just don't get it!

2004-09-06T16:58:00.000+08:00

For Christian whom from now on will start changing for the better because I believe in him so much. That's Just What You Are Aimee Mann (one two) In our endeavor we are never seeing eye to eye No guts to sever so forever may we wave goodbye And you're always telling me that it's my turn to move When I wonder what could make the needle jump the groove I won't fall for the oldest trick in the

2004-09-02T14:58:00.000+08:00

Denial I pretend not to see it, to see the truth of your existence. I pretend not to hear it, the sound of your voice that tells me you’re here. I pretend not to say it, the words I long to say to you. I pretend not to feel itthe way you're thoughtssee through mine. But I believe in you. I believe in your power to see the truth that is within me.

2004-09-01T13:18:00.000+08:00

Exorcising the Ex He called again. I don’t like it when he calls. The sound of his voice makes my heart leap not because of joy but more of dread, and a huge lot of it. It wasn’t like this before, him and me. He was my knight. He slew dragons for me, healed my wounds and rescued me from a world unfit. He listened to my woes and drove away my demons. He was the source of my joy and he meant

2004-08-31T07:07:00.000+08:00

Feng-Shui Fooey Got this from a Feng-Shui test: Your soul is relaxed and you are laid back. You try to enjoy your life to the maximum and your lovelife is soon to blossom. You will have a great year and will experience a major life-changing experience for the good. Your life will take on a different direction, it will seem hard at the time but will be the best thing for you, you will be glad

2004-08-30T15:38:00.000+08:00

Questions thrown into the void.... Would you get into a relationship with someone whom you like tremendously but would mean compromising a lot of things in the long run? In making decisions, would you rather follow your heart or listen to your head? Would you marry a lover or a best friend? Can a lover be a friend or can a friend be a lover? Why do I keep seeking comfort in your strangeness?When

2004-08-27T15:43:00.000+08:00

To my Rainmaker: I fare thee well. I have made a huge mistake. I thought you were the one I was looking for. You see, you remind me of someone I knew a long time ago, and both of you had the same power over me. It's probably just pure coincidence that I got to meet someone like you. But I hope you understand how important it is for me to do the right thing. I can't afford another huge mistake.

2004-08-26T12:25:00.000+08:00

Succumb to the Madness I can’t believe that it would come to this, that I would lose control over me. I can’t seem to think clearly with all this vulnerability. I’m just not used to this. ‘coz I’m usually ahead of myself. It’s just not fair how well you read me when I can’t even see me. I can’t hide anything from you. I know you’ll catch me before I even fall. So wipe that smile off your face

2004-08-20T15:57:00.000+08:00

Of Strange Fears and Taking Chances.... I miss the rain a lot. I especially miss the comfort it brings and how it washes away my fears. But I'm also terrified of the rain. I'm scared that the flood it brings might sweep me off my feet and drag me into some nowhere zone. They say I shouldn't be afraid of the rain especially of the flood it brings. I should just simply learn to let go and let

2004-08-16T06:29:00.000+08:00

Rainmaker Returns Whatever you do DO NOT give me any reason to hate you... because I can't (for some strange reason). The mere thought of hating you bothers me to pieces. How bothered? Well, I'm seriously writing this entry in the middle of the night with an i-mac that needs serious debugging. That's how. It probably doesn't matter to you but I thought you should know. P.S. Why do you always

2004-08-15T22:35:00.000+08:00

On Preconceived Notions It is surprising how people can easily judge you based on how you look or how you talk or how you're brought up. I guess some people can really be too shallow. I thought some people would have the sense to get to know you better and to understand you more but I guess not. It's really annoying when people suddenly get so condescending around you especially when they get

2004-08-13T17:10:00.000+08:00

To my Rainmaker You continue to confuse me. Because of you my thoughts and my feelings have gone completely out of whack. Are you telling me that something so wrong could actually be right? How could that even be possible? I wish you can tell me why.

2004-08-13T09:01:00.000+08:00

For Joe my friend. You know I'm always gonna be there for you. Firewoman Hungry Young Poets The moon's gone downI know you're still awakeThis heart I've foundI didn't intend to break'Cause I've seen the world from down thereAnd it wasn't a pretty sightNow the circle is turningAre you armed for the fight?I wanna be a firewomanI'll water down your desire'Cause I know this love is a killerI wanna

2004-08-11T17:11:00.000+08:00

RAINMAKER It always rains when I'm with you. I wonder if it's just mere coincidence or you just bring all this rain wherever we go. I wonder if it means anything at all. I don't mind getting wet in the rain but this seems to bother you a lot. I thought that was funny.

2004-08-10T15:54:00.000+08:00

Weird I tried to reach out to you but you move away you say you're lonely but your're not afraid. So I keep my distance I tried not to care but you still come in anyway even if I wanted you away. It's so hard to understand you the way you push me away and still manage to stay wish you weren't that way. I don't have a clue about you about how I am to you I wish I knew how to get closer to you

2004-08-10T15:33:00.000+08:00

Disappointed Why do you always disappoint me? Why do you always hurt me? Don't you even have a clue that I like to be with you. I don't know what you do to me I don't know why I feel this way maybe it wasn't meant to be maybe I should just go away. Today you seem disinterested Yesterday you were so sweet tomorrow I don't even want to know so I guess it's time to let go. We are truly so

2004-07-20T15:31:00.000+08:00

UNTITLEDSometimes I feel that I know youBut you never really showed yourselfBut I wish you didNow that I know it's too late You never left me at my lowest pointyou've listened to every word I saidBut I can't seem to find you nowNow that I know I need you more I must've taken you for grantedOr maybe I did something wrongbecause now is when I need you the mostNow that you've found someone else.

2004-06-29T05:39:00.000+08:00

If you can't say it... sing it! "Why" Why, do you always do this to me? Why, couldn't you just see through me? How come, you act like this Like you just don't care at all Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall? I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away I can feel, I can feel you baby, why It's not supposed to feel this way I need you, I need you More and

2004-04-28T09:02:00.000+08:00

Got this through an email. I don't normally do mush... but this got me thinking... Tree === People call me "Tree". I had dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dared to go after. She didnt have a pretty face, or good figure, nor an outstanding charm. She was just a very ordinary gal. I liked her. I really liked her. I liked her innocence, her frankness,

2004-04-17T11:03:00.000+08:00

The view from the top isn't so great..... Hype can be deceiving. People use it to lure other people so that they can be on the same mess they are in. It's like showing candy to a baby. The unknowing victim finds out in the end that it's just all puffery and that it's too late to even back out... well maybe it isn't. Maybe I can still find a way....hopefully. ');" target="_self">postCount

2004-04-13T12:25:00.000+08:00

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2004-03-31T13:45:00.000+08:00

On disappointements... I can't believe I finally found time to blog again. A lot has happened in the past few weeks. I have found myself blocking out the intricacies of reality by trying to deny its existence. What a fool I've been. For what is real is what matters in this world. They say one has to be strong in order to cushion the blow of anything that life may bring but what use is this

2004-03-06T10:43:00.000+08:00

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2003-12-26T11:32:00.000+08:00

Damned if you do. Damned if you don't. It has been so long since I wrote here. I have been thrown mercilessly into the pit of despair where the damned live and thrive. I miss my friends, I miss the life I used to have, I miss the feeling of joy and excitement.... but most of all I miss my freedom. I guess this is the price I pay for taking the blue pill. But I must carry on now, there is

2003-12-08T20:00:00.000+08:00

Be careful what you wish for because you just might get it. So I finally sold my soul to the devil, which means what I have to do know is to make sure that I get what I've bargained for. There's no turning back now. I've gotten this far already. NO REGRETS! NO REFUNDS! postCount('rockon');

2003-11-27T01:06:00.000+08:00

So I decided to brighten up my blog. Got these through an email. Nothing like a few nasty remarks to brighten up your day, enjoy! Classy things to say when stressed 1. "Okay, okay! I take it back. Unfuck you!!!" 2. "You say I'm a bitch like it's a bad thing?!" 3. "How many times do I have to flush before you go away?" 4. "Well this day was a total waste of make-up." 5. "Well aren't we a